Sunday morning walk

Some days we chase the horizon. Some days we just rise. “Carpe diem,” in any form. This print was the result of a request several years ago but it's the reminder I needed.

Prints: https://mark-tisdale.pixels.com/featured/carpe-diem-sieze-the-day-mark-tisdale.html

Stevie Ray Vaughn knows it : "never safe from the truth but in the truth we can survive / when this wall of denial comes tumbling down"

Sade knows it : "trying my hardest / doing my best / to stay alive / I'm a soldier of love"

Supertramp knows it : "Forget the pain / I know you'll make it / if you try again / there's no use in quitting / when the world is waiting for you"

Same street. Two days later. From snow and cold to tenacious crocuses springing forth from the soil — nothing is permanent. Everything is temporary. Focus on beauty. You are always in a state of renewal.

Came down with a bug last week and only started to feel human yesterday, so I thought a run would help shift the last of it. Did my longest run so far, I literally ran until my legs turned to jelly and I went dizzy. I ended up lay on the floor trying to overcome a panic attack as I couldn’t breathe or see properly but despite that a coastal run blew away the cobwebs and made me feel like I had achieved something.
It was a quiet run and there was hardly anyone about, which is very much my kind of run. Pushing myself and getting out of my comfort zone is getting out there for a run or hike but right now it has to be somewhere quiet with very few people about as groups of strangers still sends my mental health spiralling and causes my PTSD to go worse and also triggers more flashbacks than I usually deal with, so it’s too much for me right now. I’m great with groups of people I know and feel safe with I’m just not there yet to push myself further but I will get there. Planning ahead really helps but I still can’t plan for everything and some things slip through the cracks. This time it was becoming dehydrated as I don’t have a running vest to carry fluids while I run yet. This is something I’m going to have to move up my priority list if I want to do another long run, so I will get saving for one.
Proud of myself for continuing to push my boundaries by trying somewhere new to run and giving it everything I had in the tank. My body and mind will get stronger and I know it is going to be a long journey. I am working very hard on accepting that recovery is going to take time but as long as I keep trying I will eventually get there. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #complextrauma #running #runningmotivation #coastalrun #runningrecovery #freshair #pushyourlimits #keepgoing #tryingmybest

After a week of not running I got myself back out there. Super proud of myself because it’s taken me days to push myself back out the door.
I struggle massively to get out and exercise I have to have loads of things in place and it’s a whole thing just to force myself outside. The promise I made to myself that I will push myself this year to improve my mental health is thankfully still the loudest voice. The self doubt, anxiety, darkness and trauma are still extremely loud and I battle with poor mental health constantly but the important thing is that I’m still fighting, fighting for myself. None of this is easy at times it feels impossible but I don’t allow myself to give up on myself. If you are struggling with your mental health remember you are worth fighting for and fight for yourself, just a little win makes all the difference. You’ve got this and you are so worth it, keep going and keep fighting for you . #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #ptsdrecoveryjourney #complextrauma #running #runningmotivation #thisgirlcan #thisgirlcanrun #positivity #keepgoing #youareworthit #youmatter #fightforyou

Two months of not smoking, that’s huge for me. Still very much taking it a day at a time and still using nicotine mints and gum but even that is getting gradually less. Been trying to work on running faster so I’ve been doing shorter faster runs. Can’t say I’m getting the same benefit from it mental health wise as it was supposed to be about escaping into my runs to switch off I’m actually not sure how it ended up the way it has. I do want to beat my 5k PB but once I achieve that I can go back to enjoying my runs again. I’m honestly unsure that it’s the right move for me as my mental health has took a nose dive, the 2nd morning was brutal it took about an hour to get out the door and I had sat crying for 20 mins then cried during my run. It then didn’t help getting laughed at by some girl running the opposite way with her mate, it’s the 2nd time this has happened since I started back on the 1st January.
So to all you fit, fast, skinny birds good for you that you look great and are fab runners. Not all of us are like you, yes I’m fat and awkward but I’m having a go and working ridiculously hard to get out the door to run and improve my physical and mental health. So perhaps think twice before giving a snide look and laughing, try and put yourself in my shoes. To the beautiful humans that smile and encourage thank you so very much these small interactions make difficult days brighter.
Still going and still trying to improve my life and mental health . #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #running #runningmotivation #runningtherapy #bekind #thisgirlcanrun #keepgoing #staystrong #positivevibes

Lovely Peeps, if you have followed @joannechocolat on Twitter, you know she often said "If you write, you are a writer. Not 'aspiring', not hopefully one day when you're published, or have won an award. If you write, you are a writer."

She also said "Never worry about whether what you write "matters." It matters b/c you do. And one day, someone else may read it & understand that they matter, too.

This is how we build a world, one connection at a time."

#KeepGoing

Happy Wednesday! You’re halfway through the week—keep pushing, keep believing, and keep shining. The effort you put in today brings you closer to your goals. Stay focused & finish strong! #WednesdayWisdom #KeepGoing #YouGotThis #MidweekMotivation

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Lovely Peeps: I'm not boosting long / complex posts, or much re current affairs, but you might want to follow @bethsawin for her encouraging threads.

"...remember, tiny actions, in chaotic circumstances seed change in unpredictable ways.

Try to let go of what the future will be, & act in the moment with the highest fidelity you can to the world you want to see emerge.

High fidelity to a just & life-sustaining future. Make that future already here if only microscopically."

#KeepGoing

(My lovelies, I know I don't normally post this much in a day, especially publicly, but you all are *so* lovely and I love being here, I'm having a quiet day going through old files, I'm warm enough & fed, and I'm feeling grateful.

Life offline is keeping me away more than ever, so I'm happy to post all these wee bits of encouragement, delight, & silliness while I can.

Enjoy! May you be well, & #KeepGoing )

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My Lovely Peeps:

I read this at least once a year & it *never* fails to #encourage & inspire me.

It is so good whether you're feeling small in your own self, or in the difference you're trying to make in the world.

If you’re losing #hope, do at least a little more before giving up.

You always have power.

Never forget small actions matter.

Make yourself a wee republic of unconquered spirit.

https://abby-brockman.medium.com/despair-is-not-a-strategy-15-principles-of-hope-deba7ac2cb29

The journey may be tough, but your dream game is worth it.
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Today I shared a memory from my divorce, when my kids were toddlers. If things are going sideways for you right now, I want you to know that grace is there, too.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DC4PpjcRsnF/?igsh=MXJ6ZXF4MWd4ZXFiZQ==