MH, sexuality, -
Like, I guess objectively it was easier than being outright gay because I could at least have earnest feelings in a hetero relationship so I dunno. I just chose not to date (for the most part) so that I could just be a regular nerd's worth of disappointment to my dad instead. Maybe it was all worry for nothing, maybe it wasn't. Not tempted to find out at this point tbh.
MH, sexuality, -
So I guess one of the "cool" features of being bi is I was able to pretend for a long time. Yeah I was beating myself up for "having gay thoughts" and terrified of the prospect of being gay but "I like girls" so I got to shove all that under the carpet. Except it fucked me up and then I wasn't able to have honest, intimate relationships with *anybody* because it felt half-hearted on one hand and social suicide on the other.
Mental Health, Negative, Sarcasm
Love having more anxiety because of a thing anxiety makes worse. Love all my coping mechanisms being things that are bad for me. Love being terrified of having extraordinarily rare conditions despite ample evidence to the contrary. Love being unable to accept things at face value due to a miniscule chance of being wrong. Especially love the fear that even saying this stuff so vaguely will make it worse.
Pets, Cancer, Money
A friend of mine has a sick dog, they almost have enough ($860/$1100) through GoFundMe to cover all the costs. If you have anything to spare they and Honey would appreciate it greatly, and if you don't that's 100% cool but boosts are appreciated!
Double dipping this #caturday to show my favorite picture of Hanna from 4(!) years ago, at the old house. I even remembered the caption this time.
Hanna wasn't a fan of the bandana. #caturday
Mental Health, (sort of but not really) Sarcasm, negativity
The thing I fucking love about having a mental health issue is knowing that it's all stupid and illogical but still turning into a pile of stress over seeing/hearing/thinking something mundane and no one understands why because even I don't.
A reflection on the departure of RMS - Thomas Bushnell, BSG - Medium
A miserable little pile of adjectives.
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