Sometimes I wonder if I'm just running the race here looking for numbers trying to get people to like some false image of myself.
I've been trying to figure out why those endorphins hit so hard when I get a boost or a fav. Specifically i keep asking myself "is it worth hanging around if those mean more to me than trying to forge real friendships and throw my heart into this community?" If it were true, than no - 1/3

I would shutter this thing and go back to whatever the fuck I spent my time doing before.
But actually it's not true. I'm not sitting here steeple-fingered watching notes roll in with my lit stogie turning my tootspace into a hazy villain's den. Whenever someone says "hey, you should follow my jammy! He's doing it!" I am both amazed and bewildered and deeply deeply touched. Every tiny interaction with any person on here has meant the world to me - 2/3

Its taught me that there are still places on the internet where I can let my guard down and be me.
So if anybody actually reads through all of this, know that I really appreciate you and your company. ☺️ Thanks for giving me a chance. - 3/3