Did you know fathers can get PTSD after a difficult birth? I didn't.

http://www.essentialbaby.com.au/birth/birth-stories/birth-trauma-is-not-just-for-women-the-new-dads-suffering-posttraumatic-stress-disorder-20171106-gzg7xp

I suspect it happened to me.

2.5 years later I still grapple with an unreasonable temper - certain things trigger me, followed by depression where I can barely get out of bed.

Neither of which fit with my self-image; you think you know yourself at 40 (now 42)... Temper? depression? That's not me!

I never got help, aside from venting to friends (I have amazing friends). Maybe I should.

... or maybe the fact that I'm recognizing what is going on means I'm nearly done with it.

I'm definitely on the mend.

I dunno. I'm used to being the one to support others, rarely the one with the issues.

But I'm also so, so tired of this temper. I want it gone. I want to laugh at stupid things, not be enraged by them.

I think I'll see someone in Iceland. I can afford it, worst case I waste some money and time.